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 Posted: Wednesday September 21st, 2005 00:52
What is the big deal, a white girl with a butt big deal, don't you have any picture of black women, can't j ho fix her boxers nose.



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 Posted: Wednesday September 21st, 2005 16:02
mmmm.. i can see where this thread is heading...
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 Posted: Wednesday September 21st, 2005 16:18
BP

Don't take this personally, and it has nothing to do with me being the furthest thing away from a J-Lo fan you can get but........really, there is only one place for this.

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 Posted: Tuesday September 27th, 2005 13:24
Lately ive met sum1 who brings da, well freak out in me n we recently had a 3sum n since den i jus want more freaky stuff. sud i stop or is it ok as long as im not hurting no 1. im not a loose gal dis guy jus makes me crazy!! i now wan sum gal on gal action so am i bi too now??



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 Posted: Tuesday September 27th, 2005 13:48
This post is definitely in the wrong forum.  Let me move it somewhere more suitable.

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 Posted: Wednesday September 28th, 2005 11:50
Thought it would be very insightful if we as the blacknet community got an insight of what the white race really think and say about the African Diaspora!

Here are a few links to the website white pride! - think Trojan Horse.. if you get my drift!

(links removed by Moderation team)..


some of the staff said in there is CRAZY! UNBELIEVABLE!.. lets educate these ignorant lost souls!..

Hope we as BlackNEt don't stoop to their level!!

More reason why we should stop fighting among ourselves and pull together!.. like a FIST!


Last edited on Wednesday September 28th, 2005 12:00 by Kunjufu



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 Posted: Wednesday September 28th, 2005 12:05
Personal view NOT a BLACKNET VIEW;

I'm going to be blunt, if Black people after 400 years of experience really need to visit a Fascist website to find out what they THINK about us.. then I would personally question whether there is something wrong with you..

Secondly, If people really FEEL that they must VISIT these people, please don't link it to BLACKNET..one we are NOT FASCIST and I personally find it very offensive that our name would be uttered in the same breath as THAT Fascist Website.. further mentioning there stupidty and then visiting them only draws them here.. Then i and the other Moderators spend half the friggin night cleaning out their crap from here..so please don't do it..

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 Posted: Wednesday September 28th, 2005 12:18
very short sighted way of looking at things!.. u dissappoint me Kunjufu..

(Always Know your opponent! - Art of War!)



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 Posted: Wednesday September 28th, 2005 12:21
Mluhya: Ok I'm going to bit.. so you tell me what would going to That Fascist website tell me about my Opponent I'm curious...?



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 Posted: Sunday October 2nd, 2005 14:01
If they were clothes like "Lacoste" "Burberry2 which are considered by some to be White People makes



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 Posted: Sunday October 2nd, 2005 14:42
dont you think you are rather boring...

as all your posts revolve around black people wearing lacoste?

huh...boring and a troll aswell. man in suprised they aint got rid of you yet?

 



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 Posted: Sunday October 2nd, 2005 17:22
Oh your back again and u still come with that same sh*t, oh dear.



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 01:00
LacosteBlackLad wrote: If they were clothes like "Lacoste" "Burberry2 which are considered by some to be White People makes

 

 

lol out of all the posts.....

 

that has to be one of the most pointless ones

wat kinda ish is that ?! lmao



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 21:33
I've always wanted to know what the word "Jungle Bunny" means it's often used by racist  Londoners.

A couple of years ago I was invited on a night out with one of my white friends as it was his birthday. We ended up in one of those white clubs playing party music when the tune "jungle boogie" came on.  This white girl came over to me and started dancing (she was part of the group) she started singing "jungle bunny" instead of "jungle boogie" to the chorus I said f**k that's not the f-ing words which she then went red faced and said yes it is.  I question her about it later and she apologised and blamed it on the drink but there was sN****ring amongst the white group.

I've always wondered what's the origins of that word, can anyone tell me?



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 21:48
Does it matter? Try a web search engine.



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 21:51
Jungle bunny (The Color of Words, pp. 131-132): Derogatory term for a black person, originally for a slave newly arrived from Africa, alluding to primitiveness; also African bunny. Perhaps because of the diminutive-sounding bunny, this term may sometimes be used with jocular intent. Nevertheless, it is racist and figures into the white supremacist lexicon.



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 22:04
@ Huzzah1 Hmmm does it matter try a web search you silly piss, of course it matters which is why I asked and umbrarchist gave me an excellent definition (cheers by the way).



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 22:11
Liono wrote: @ Huzzah1 Hmmm does it matter try a web search you silly piss, of course it matters which is why I asked and umbrarchist gave me an excellent definition (cheers by the way).

You created a thread to answer a question you could have got from Google. Or is this a debate? I don't understand. Perhaps this is the shortest thread of all time.



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 22:21
I think there are a few people who may have been called a "jungle bunny" in there time it's usually used by people 40 upwards.  When people of my generation hear it(20's) we wonder what it atually means as.

So I don't know where your going typing with your crusty duppy fingers bout look it up on google. Wid you renkniss why have to word your sh*t like dat for? of course I looked it up on google but a resonable definition didn't come up.

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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 22:38
"crusty duppy fingers"

 

By far my favourite grouping of words today.LOL

 

I love the way us Africans riff with the English language,its grrrrrrreeeeeeeeeat.It's like jazz.:)



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 Posted: Monday October 3rd, 2005 23:05
I don't like having a go at people trust me it's not really in my nature, but when under attack I do believe you have stand up and defend yourself regardless and that goes for everyone...................

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 Posted: Wednesday October 5th, 2005 11:39
I am black and I believe all this racism to us is absolutelt awful, whitey is just jealous of our big black penises.

I think that all towns should have to have a place called "Black Hall" where all the blacks can go without bullsh*t from whitey.

Damn, whitey, they're just jealous we get all the b**ches and we're much smarter than them, and we are much better at speaking than them.

The black man is better than whitey!

Who's with me brothers!?



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 Posted: Wednesday October 5th, 2005 11:42
LAMESVILLE!

POPULATION:YOU

 

Now will someone kindly come and collect the trash.



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 Posted: Wednesday October 5th, 2005 11:42
Oh. Dear.



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 Posted: Wednesday October 5th, 2005 11:54
blkhailer Attention blkhailer 

TROLL ALERT!!



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 Posted: Wednesday October 5th, 2005 12:54
 

Any bets on the ethnicity of this individual?

start at 20 British pounds.. exchange rate brings more dollars nowadays..



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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 10:58
banana.gif is anal sex the new ting that boys want know adays, i wanna know u lot veiw



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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 11:08

I hope you dont get too upset when this thread gets thrown in the trash.



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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 11:08
@ Kid, are you under 18? if you are, shouldn't you have your head in a book or thinking about other things besides the latest type of sex a guy wants nowadays?

If you are not under 18, then my question would be why are you putting such a question in the under 18's forum?

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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 11:10
WELL IF MORE YOUNG BOYS WANT ANAL SEX THEN....HMM MM...I CAN ONLY THINK OF ONE THING...EVEN IF THEY CLAIM THEY STRAIGHT, BUT...OFF TO THE BIN THIS GOES!



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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 11:10


 

Modz add the finishing touchez. plz

 



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 Posted: Friday October 7th, 2005 13:46
@ Kid

Are you really a kid?  Gee I figured you for much younger than that! 

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 Posted: Saturday October 8th, 2005 02:29
As a light skinned sister from Ethiopia I love and have so much respect for black women.  The strength of my mom, and grandmother has made me realise that yes, maybe I do come from the poorest country in the world, but heck no one on this planet can take and rip my love/PRIDE for my people, whether you're black or white I'll defend my fellow sister in a heart beat.

Here's an example.  This made me so angry I had to find a black forum to express my frustration.

I was on th bus to work IN A LARGE CITY IN ONTARIO.  We came to a stop downtown and a bunch of university black students who happened to be males and some white women got on.  They sat right behind me.  They were loud but not more than 5 years younger than me.  They were loud, obnoxious.  I wasn't paying attention to what they were saying but a piece of their conversation got my attention.  I heard one  male say "Man, I couldn't care less if no black women want me.  I got all the white women I can get".  The girls started giggling away, not realising that they were just insulted.

As an ethiopian woman whose been born here I heard so many black guys say the same thing.  They're frustrated that black women don't want to give them the time of day.  It's so true and I can see where they're coming from.  Including myself, I admit I have never been with a black guy---carib or african.  I've dated mostly ethiopian, arab and french guys.  But never did I ONCE degrade black men(carib and african).

So hearing this guy I was so hurt to hear him go on and on about how he didn't care if black women didn't want his ass and that they were snobs, not worth chasingetc .....But why in the HELL WOULD YOU GET ON A PUBLIC BUS WHERE WHITE MEN, WOMEN, BLACK MEN AND WOMEN, ASIANS AND ORIENTALS CAN HEAR YOU SOUND LIKE A FOOL?  I was embarrassed for him because as a black men............

Because as a black male you should feel guilt.

Black men should feel guilt for not standing up for their black women 10, 50, 100 years ago.  They should feel guilty that 500 years ago black women, children and  elderly got dragged from their own home, put in a boat like animals and cargoed to the "new world". 

Black men of today have this particular guilt that's hovering over their heads (passed down from their ancestors) and they are blinded so much from it that they're doing the TOTAL OPPOSITE; IN THIS CASE THE EXAMPLE OF THIS NEGRO MALE STUDENT ON THE BUS DEGRADING BLACK WOMEN.

How dare black men think that the lighter you are, the better.  How dare they think "if it's white it must be right!". This kid on the bus had no shame.  He was a typical caribean boy who probably had ONE white girl pregnant and feeding off of my tax money.  He doesn't even realise that the media has brainwashed him into thinkin that he's special because he can score with easy white women. I call these black men the 'NEW AGE SLAVES". mENTAL SLVERY IS WHAT BLACK MALES ARE STILL LIVING UNDER.  They think that black women are gold diggers.  Well than f**k off!!  Black women should get all the f**kin bling and luxury in life for all the sh*t we had to endure.  But if it's a honkey or a chink female no they're not gold diggers just ladies with taste, right?  Every men that's labeled me golddirgger has been black, never did a non-black male call me that!!!  How ironic eh?

I MEAN BLACK PEOPLE OF THE WORLD!!!!!! WAKE UP!!!!!!!! DON'T PUT YOUR BLACK WOMEN DOWN.  DON't THINK THEY'RE LOWER CLASS THAN OTHER WOMEN.  THEY ARE YOUR MOTHERS, YOUR SISTERS, YOUR DAUGHTERS. 

Let's start from here on with our own mentality, NOT THE MEDIA YOU GULIBLE LITTLE MEN.  Fight to find youself a good black woman,  she deserves to be taken out and dined, she deserves the extra jewels, she deserves having doors opened, chairs pulled, she deserves being looked after if she's sick!! 

BLACK WOMEN DESERVE MORE THAN ANY OTHER WOMEN OUT ON PLANET EARTH.  THEY HAVE BEEN RAPED, SPAT AT, MURDERED, DEGRADED, ENSLAVED, NEGELECTED but still BLACK WOMEN COME THROUGH AS TOUGH AND STRONG HUMAN BEINGS!  Even after all the gory history.  History that proves that our own black men couldn't defend us, protect us from the rest of the world! we're survivors! That's our gift from God.

CAN'T THE BLACK MAN AT LEAST MAKE IT UP TO BLACK WOMEN FOR NOT PROTECTING US CENTURIES AFTER CENTURIES?  The least a black man can do is not DEGRADE BLACK WOMEN, especially in public.  Because God has sculpted black women on this earth to represent STRENGTH AND ENDURANCE!!!!!!!!

I LOVE MY BLACK SISTERS!!  I might be light skinned but I'd stand up for my dark skinned, light skinned sister like no  BLACK MEN can! RESPECT!!!!!!!!!!!!



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 Posted: Saturday October 8th, 2005 08:02
hi.

i am a gay black man in an interracial relationship, and i was just wondering what the village is like? is there a lot of homophobia or bigotry here? there is on other black websites. are the people freindly?

anyway, just to say hi to everyone.



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 Posted: Saturday October 8th, 2005 08:08
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 Posted: Saturday October 8th, 2005 08:20
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 Posted: Saturday October 8th, 2005 22:59
@phatscent, Hey girl! You gonna run into stupid ass brothers like this everywhere you go ... As I stated on another thread I started ,most of the black men that act like this and exhibit that type of behavior are better off with white women ,we have enough problems as sistas anyway ... The fact that you never dated a black guy is interesting to me.In the states there are a lot of black women that are just now getting into the whole white guy thing cause for so long we felt this need to be exclusive to black men,but I think it has alot to do with the fact that black women have such a painful past with white men;the slave rapes ,sleeping with them when we couldn't come up with the rent money,having them come into black communities to buy sex from our sisters and mothers,ect..  I am in a commited relationship right now,but even if I were single I don't know if I could get past that painful his